For Ruth Behar
I’m still thinking about your porch light
like a full moon casting a foggy halo
in the frigid air last night, the bare oaks
branching into the sky like nerve endings
inches away from the frozen stars,
the pink gables of your Victorian home
protesting yet another winter for you
captive in Ann Arbor as you practice
mambo by the fireplace. I’m following
your red-velvet shoes to conga beats
and bongo taps taking your body, but
not your life, from the snow mantling
your windows outside, 1,600 miles
away from Cuba. I’m tasting the cafecito
you made, the slice of homemade flan
floating in burnt sugar like the stories
you told me you can’t finish writing,
no matter how many times you travel
through time back to Havana to steal
every memory ever stolen from you.
You’re a thief anyone would forgive,
wanting only to imagine faces for names
chiseled on the graves of your family
at Guanabacoa, walk on Calle Aguacate
and pretend to meet the grandfather
you never met at his lace shop for lunch,
or pray the Kaddish like your mother
at the synagogue in El Vedado, stand
on the steps there like you once did
in a photo you can’t remember taking.
I confess I pitied you, still trying to reach
that unreachable island within the island
you still call home. I thought I was done
with Cuba, tired of filling in the blanks,
but now I’m not sure. Maybe if I return
just once more, walk the sugarcane fields
my father once cut, drive down the road
where my mother once peddled guavas
to pay for textbooks, sit on the porch
of my grandmother’s house, imagine her
still in the kitchen making arroz-con-leche—
maybe then I’ll have an answer for you
last night when you asked me: Would you
move to Cuba? Would you die there?
The speaker of this poem is meant to be the author, Richard Blanco. Blanco is the son of Cuban-exile parents, writing this poem in the context of growing up as the son of immigrants. “The Island Within” covers themes that relate to nostalgia for one’s homeland, personal identity and the past, and exile. The theme and tone of nostalgia can be seen numerous times throughout the poem, with the speaker mentioning the things he remembers and is longing for, such as “I’m still thinking about your porch light” and “I’m tasting the cafecito you made.” This nostalgia for the island of Cuba helps the readers to understand that the speaker feels like he is missing a part of himself and his identity by being separated from his homeland and the people there. The consistent use of bringing up fond memories of the past further builds on the theme of personal identity and the past, making this time of happiness seem unreachable to both the speaker and the reader.
The poem opens with the line “For Ruth Behar.” The reader of the poem can assume that this is a friend of Blanco because he consistently fondly speaks to this person throughout the poem, bringing up the memories that they shared together. In the beginning of the poem, he describes a fond memory with this woman, describing the “Victorian home” and “mambo by the fireplace”, demonstrating their closeness. Blanco also describes the homesickness they both feel for Cuba when he says that they are “1,600 miles away from Cuba”, which builds on the theme of nostalgia and personal identity, as they both feel like they are missing something by being so far away from the island.
In the second stanza, Blanco employs a metaphor when he says that he pities his friend, “still trying to reach that unreachable island within the island you still call home.” The “unreachable island” that he is referring to is the family that she either has lost or cannot reach anymore. He describes the graves of her family members, the grandfather she never got to meet, the steps where she posed for a picture she can’t remember taking. All of these lost memories and experiences are compared to an island of the friend’s memories, all within the island that they love (Cuba). The full line I cited before is where the title comes from, “The Island Within.” The island that Blanco and Behar know and love weighs heavily on their minds as they miss it every day, longing for the people and the memories of Cuba. And these feelings that they are experiencing are their own islands, making the title even more complex. To dive even deeper into the title, the people themselves could be compared to islands because of the isolation that they feel regarding their memories and nostalgia for their past experiences.
Blanco uses Spanish italicized words, like “cafecito” and “arroz-con-leche”, throughout the poem to exemplify the memories and experiences of his past. He knows that some of his readers will likely not understand the Spanish words that he is using, but he knows that the effect will be the same. The effect of using Spanish in this poem is to demonstrate how Blanco is still connected to and longing for his heritage, despite his physical separation from his homeland. His memories, experiences, and family members are extremely important to him and who he is today, and he wanted that to be represented in this poem.
The poem ends with the friend asking the speaker “Would you move to Cuba? Would you die there?” This is a powerful way to wrap up the poem because it is a demonstration of the inner turmoil the speaker is experiencing regarding his homeland. He feels so attached to Cuba and the memories he has from it, but is he willing to pack up and leave the entire life he has built for himself here? He says he wants to “return just one more time”, and I think that he answered his own question in this poem. He consistently shows how strongly he feels towards his island, and his heart seems to be there.